Tuesday, April 15, 2014

Now anyone can...

Write.

Yes.

Anyone who can afford to buy a decent laptop can write.

As in, write, published and the works.

I found out how easy it was to have your works published as an e-Book. Now the only thing that you will have to think about is whether you want to earn revenue from it, or not.

When I was younger, I was given my youngest Aunt's typewriter. She studied office management in high school so when she graduated, she no longer needed the typewriter and decided to 'bestow' it upon me. I gleefully accepted.

It is just a matter of whether you have enough confidence and enough creativity to have your work published or not. A friend remarked that I might want to consider writing fiction and try to have it published online, or better, published as a book.

'Who knows, you may be the next JK Rowling.'

'I don't know if I would buy MY own book.' I said, with a smirk.

I smirk, a lot, when people tell me that I should record YouTube videos of me singing, because turned out (To them) that I can sing... decently.

Anything that requires me to be in that creative process, I will smirk. Should I resign to a lifetime of paper pushing and the endless hours of making raw meaningless data, meaningful? Should I cultivate an ambition of staying with a company for more than 5 years in the hope of being cross bordered overseas?

I really don't know. As a matter of fact, I don't actually know what I want to do, or end up as. All I know is that I am happy on my yoga mat, or meditating on a weekend for more than 20 minutes.

But who knows eh? I may just have a book published ... well.. about something... some time... in the future. Afterall, I have the typing speed of over 70-80 wpm. Should get that into profitable use, at least. :P

Saturday, April 12, 2014

Congratulations on being selected as a STUDENT

I signed up for a degree program recently.

Taking into account my overall strength in writing, even though what I am currently doing as a profession has nothing to do with writing, I took Communications as my major.

I love writing. I have always had more talent with words than I do with numbers and statistics, although in a cruel twist of irony, I ended up in a job where I have to know how to calculate FTEs in my head.

I figured, I have to take that step now, and just work on a scroll. Afterall, I was told many times that I would have gone a lot further than I have now, if it is not because of the fact that I am lacking in the degree department.

I am a firm believer in life experience credibility rather than a cred printed out in ink on a piece of paper. A degree is just a really expensive way of telling the world that you have successfully spent a genormous amount of money on theoretical skills.

It is easier for me now that I can apply my professional management experience into my studies. I am much more level headed (I would like to think that I am) and much more mature in handling time challenges. Having the cash to study the way I want to is a big plus. I can never see myself studying with a flask of designer coffee, with a laptop, iPad and a Moleskine notebook, if I was still a 'student, student'.

Taking on the degree program also means that I have a lot to cut back on in terms of costs in my expenditures. Somehow it is easier to do now that I am living on my own in a land 'far far away' from all types of worldly temptations. (Yeap).

I always try to inject a certain amount of comical quality in my endeavors. I have the ability to laugh at myself and also be judgmental at myself.

Work is still, well... a bit frustrating. But I have good support from my peers, although sometimes I think that they are more sympathetic more than anything else.

Well, I will just need to have this work.

Namaste. 

Thursday, April 10, 2014

Tuesday, April 8, 2014

Umm

I think the other reason why I haven't been blogging recently is because of my, unhappiness.

Sooner or later, I will have to decide on what I need to do to figure this out, because it is confusing me, and it is stressing me out.

I remembered when I was a team lead at the former company, I make less by half of what I make now... but... guess what? I was happy.

I was arguing with the onshore on processes and had to also take care of the quality for the whole team, AT THE SAME TIME, but I was happy.

I WAS HAPPY.

I couldn't afford most of the stuff I have right now...

But...

I WAS HAPPY.

I might come across as whiny, but I miss those days...

I miss being.. happy.. like really. Like looking forward to work, because I meant something. I have no need to deal with the drama from other people, because I was focusing more on my own work.

And I was happy.

So what does that, tell me?

I really don't know. 

Sunday, March 30, 2014

Recently...

I have not had any time for the blog.

I am almost on the verge of stopping the blog.

But the thought of not writing, even if it is for my own self's sanity, seems... insane.

So in the midst of all that's frustrating and sad, MH370 being one of it, I will try to soldier on.

Soldiering... ON.




Friday, February 7, 2014

Erk

I have yet to settle down in my new job. To be honest, I understand, kind of, how the corporate culture like in this company that I am now attached with.

But I also have my concerns. A few things tick me off. Incompetence somehow, frustrates me.

I have yet to get my own laptop (Yes) and I am extremely, upset over that. I feel as if I am not, well, welcomed. I guess that was one of the reason why as a Manager, I always make sure that my new hires are given every single support they need from me. and that's also part of the reason why I am known as someone who is, defensive of my people. Now the table has been turned on me, and I am wondering what is it that I have done wrong to deserve this.

Ha ha, kind of trivial I know, but when it involves your livelihood, it is normal for anyone to feel the way I feel.

The traffic is still killing me softly, although I have found another less frustrating no less slower than the other route. I guess I will just have to get used to this. Make myself used to this.

I am still trying to find out if I am actually happy in this new position. I have yet to feel that... properly. I don't know when.

But I think it should take more than 2 weeks on the job to give me a clear answer.

Be blessed, Namaste.

Ayu

Friday, January 17, 2014

You either do, or you don't

I feel that I must apologize for my lack of commitment to updating this blog.

Things had been, different. I guess it comes with the new job and role that I am taking over.

Anyway.

Because of the ridiculous KL traffic that puts me in a tricky situation when it comes to going home after work, I have decided to join the gym located in my new office's building.

My first workout was yesterday. I was not really surprised to find that it was... Crap.

I had no stamina and I was weak. I was thinking and running at the same time and it was not great.

My left leg had a mild cramp and I was floored after 45 minutes.

Mind you that before this, I would usually work out for more than 2 hours... Daily.

On the way home, I was doing an RCA (Root Cause Analysis.. ;p) on my crappy workout.

First thing's first, my diet was absolutely irregular. Since I started work, lunch was non - existent. I am very new in the office. I have no friends, and everybody seemed to work on lunch. I was.. well... lost. which is quite normal if you are new.

So, obviously, I didn't have anything for lunch. I had a grande size mocha for breakfast and for my lunch (-ish) I had a grande size mocha and a piece of bread.

The rest of the day was spent in one meeting after another.

So by 6 pm, I was spent. My energy was depleted. But I soldiered on to gym.

OBVIOUSLY, I had a crappy workout.

Okay, so, my Goal plan for now is to...

Eat more, have a better workout.

And oh. Happy January everyone.

With Love, Namaste.