Sunday, April 20, 2014

Life altering questions?

So, I was going throughout twitter when I came across this :

Now, if you are like me, who is constantly trying to figure out her purpose in life and especially on what she wants to do in life (like, for real.), this might be able to help. 

I mean, right about now, I think I would be need all the help that I can get in trying to figure out my life. 

Earlier on, I remarked casually on my Facebook, that, I would like to first achieve a 5 digit pay check. When that happens, I will hang up my greasy corporate ladder climbing gloves, and do what I want. 

Give and take, that may take me around.. Oh I don't know, another 10 years before I can earn that much. 

It is funny that no matter how, I would always think of my future as a single person. 

Don't get me wrong, I would love to meet someone and probably build an (alternate?) future with him (or her, let's keep an open mind on this.. Haha!).. But for now, I can't include someone else in. 

But yeah... I intend to post my future blog post based on these questions. I would like to make a big deal out of it. Watch this space. 

Tuesday, April 15, 2014

Now anyone can...

Write.

Yes.

Anyone who can afford to buy a decent laptop can write.

As in, write, published and the works.

I found out how easy it was to have your works published as an e-Book. Now the only thing that you will have to think about is whether you want to earn revenue from it, or not.

When I was younger, I was given my youngest Aunt's typewriter. She studied office management in high school so when she graduated, she no longer needed the typewriter and decided to 'bestow' it upon me. I gleefully accepted.

It is just a matter of whether you have enough confidence and enough creativity to have your work published or not. A friend remarked that I might want to consider writing fiction and try to have it published online, or better, published as a book.

'Who knows, you may be the next JK Rowling.'

'I don't know if I would buy MY own book.' I said, with a smirk.

I smirk, a lot, when people tell me that I should record YouTube videos of me singing, because turned out (To them) that I can sing... decently.

Anything that requires me to be in that creative process, I will smirk. Should I resign to a lifetime of paper pushing and the endless hours of making raw meaningless data, meaningful? Should I cultivate an ambition of staying with a company for more than 5 years in the hope of being cross bordered overseas?

I really don't know. As a matter of fact, I don't actually know what I want to do, or end up as. All I know is that I am happy on my yoga mat, or meditating on a weekend for more than 20 minutes.

But who knows eh? I may just have a book published ... well.. about something... some time... in the future. Afterall, I have the typing speed of over 70-80 wpm. Should get that into profitable use, at least. :P

Saturday, April 12, 2014

Congratulations on being selected as a STUDENT

I signed up for a degree program recently.

Taking into account my overall strength in writing, even though what I am currently doing as a profession has nothing to do with writing, I took Communications as my major.

I love writing. I have always had more talent with words than I do with numbers and statistics, although in a cruel twist of irony, I ended up in a job where I have to know how to calculate FTEs in my head.

I figured, I have to take that step now, and just work on a scroll. Afterall, I was told many times that I would have gone a lot further than I have now, if it is not because of the fact that I am lacking in the degree department.

I am a firm believer in life experience credibility rather than a cred printed out in ink on a piece of paper. A degree is just a really expensive way of telling the world that you have successfully spent a genormous amount of money on theoretical skills.

It is easier for me now that I can apply my professional management experience into my studies. I am much more level headed (I would like to think that I am) and much more mature in handling time challenges. Having the cash to study the way I want to is a big plus. I can never see myself studying with a flask of designer coffee, with a laptop, iPad and a Moleskine notebook, if I was still a 'student, student'.

Taking on the degree program also means that I have a lot to cut back on in terms of costs in my expenditures. Somehow it is easier to do now that I am living on my own in a land 'far far away' from all types of worldly temptations. (Yeap).

I always try to inject a certain amount of comical quality in my endeavors. I have the ability to laugh at myself and also be judgmental at myself.

Work is still, well... a bit frustrating. But I have good support from my peers, although sometimes I think that they are more sympathetic more than anything else.

Well, I will just need to have this work.

Namaste. 

Thursday, April 10, 2014

Tuesday, April 8, 2014

Umm

I think the other reason why I haven't been blogging recently is because of my, unhappiness.

Sooner or later, I will have to decide on what I need to do to figure this out, because it is confusing me, and it is stressing me out.

I remembered when I was a team lead at the former company, I make less by half of what I make now... but... guess what? I was happy.

I was arguing with the onshore on processes and had to also take care of the quality for the whole team, AT THE SAME TIME, but I was happy.

I WAS HAPPY.

I couldn't afford most of the stuff I have right now...

But...

I WAS HAPPY.

I might come across as whiny, but I miss those days...

I miss being.. happy.. like really. Like looking forward to work, because I meant something. I have no need to deal with the drama from other people, because I was focusing more on my own work.

And I was happy.

So what does that, tell me?

I really don't know. 

Sunday, March 30, 2014

Recently...

I have not had any time for the blog.

I am almost on the verge of stopping the blog.

But the thought of not writing, even if it is for my own self's sanity, seems... insane.

So in the midst of all that's frustrating and sad, MH370 being one of it, I will try to soldier on.

Soldiering... ON.




Friday, February 7, 2014

Erk

I have yet to settle down in my new job. To be honest, I understand, kind of, how the corporate culture like in this company that I am now attached with.

But I also have my concerns. A few things tick me off. Incompetence somehow, frustrates me.

I have yet to get my own laptop (Yes) and I am extremely, upset over that. I feel as if I am not, well, welcomed. I guess that was one of the reason why as a Manager, I always make sure that my new hires are given every single support they need from me. and that's also part of the reason why I am known as someone who is, defensive of my people. Now the table has been turned on me, and I am wondering what is it that I have done wrong to deserve this.

Ha ha, kind of trivial I know, but when it involves your livelihood, it is normal for anyone to feel the way I feel.

The traffic is still killing me softly, although I have found another less frustrating no less slower than the other route. I guess I will just have to get used to this. Make myself used to this.

I am still trying to find out if I am actually happy in this new position. I have yet to feel that... properly. I don't know when.

But I think it should take more than 2 weeks on the job to give me a clear answer.

Be blessed, Namaste.

Ayu